Author: Sheila Morris

  • Sleepless in Seattle – Part 1 (from Not Quite the Same)

    Sleepless in Seattle – Part 1 (from Not Quite the Same)


    The 1968 Buick Skylark was a sweet ride.

                 My daddy always bought either a Chevrolet from Mr. Dickey at his dealership in Anderson, Texas, or a Ford from Virgil Cook in Shiro. My granddaddy always purchased Fords from Mr. Cook because he was one of the best customers in Pa’s barbershop. My Uncle Marion, my mother’s oldest brother who lived with us in my grandmother’s house, faithfully bought Studebakers from my Uncle Floyd Hiney at the Mosehart & Keller dealership in Houston. Nobody in my family ever owned a Buick.

                When I was in college, daddy bought me an old Nash Rambler that had seen better days. It was a creamy beige four-door sedan that later became famous as the forerunner of other compact models. The most adventuresome feature of my car was its stick-shift transmission. That was exciting because Austin was a city of many steep hills, and I held my breath when a stoplight changed to red at the top of one of them.

                One Saturday morning I was on my way to Richards to visit my grandparents and got stuck on the pinnacle of a steep horizontal incline at a red light just beyond Memorial Stadium. I pushed in the clutch and gunned the accelerator. Unfortunately, I hadn’t put the car in first gear. It was in neutral. I rolled backwards into the car behind me. The older female driver was in her bright shiny new Cadillac. She got out of her car and berated reckless UT students in general, and me in particular. Although the damage to either vehicle was nonexistent, I never lost the feeling that danger lurked whenever I saw green lights turn yellow.

                My position with the firm of Arthur Andersen & Company in Houston following my graduation from college definitely required new wheels. As soon as I got my first paycheck, I took the initial step towards supporting the American economy by borrowing money to buy a new car. I settled on the Buick because I felt it was a move up from the Fords and Chevrolets of my family. I was upwardly mobile.

                 I liked the Skylark for its sporty two-door coupe look. I chose a deep blue color with a white hard top. Automatic transmission. It was a great car, and it was only ninety-eight dollars monthly. I applied for a new Exxon credit card to make sure I never ran out of gas. I joined the other Baby Boomers who believed in the 1960s that postponing purchases due to lack of cash was folly.

                When my friend Adrian Ferrell and I decided in 1968 to move to Seattle by looking at the farthest place from our apartments in Houston on a map of the United States, I told her we could take my car. It had low mileage and looked super fine. We saw no reason to drive two. The problem with a two-door coupe was that it didn’t have tons of room in the back seat or in the trunk. Since all my worldly possessions consisted of a small portable color television set, record player, a few textbooks and clothes, there was plenty of space for Adrian’s belongings. At twenty-two years of age, neither of us had had time to accumulate much.

                My family was aghast at this turn of events. It was the first time, to their knowledge, that I had done anything so totally unexpected and reckless. My mother and dad maintained their composure better than my grandparents in the early stages of my revelations. My dad philosophized that he had been on his own in England at my age. Of course, there had been a world war to fight. So, maybe that wasn’t the best comparison.

                My grandmother, Ma, on my daddy’s side, voiced everyone’s questions that they were reluctant to ask. Was I crazy? Had any of our people ever lived in Seattle, Washington? Did I know one person in that city? What would I do for work? What would I do for a place to live? Who was Adrian Ferrell? Were any of her people in Seattle, Washington? Did I know that I was breaking her heart by moving so far away from home? After all, she didn’t have that many years left. And on and on. She was not happy.

                When I said goodbye to my mom and dad on that gorgeous Texas day in September 1968, my mother wept. I hugged her and tried to reassure her that everything would be okay. She was inconsolable.

                My dad reminded me that roads ran both ways and I could come home if I was disappointed with life in the Pacific Northwest. I hugged him, too, and said I would call them when I could. He magnanimously told me to feel free to call collect.

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    The journey begun that day in September 1968 was about much more than a change in geography 3,000 miles from my weeping mother on that driveway in Rosenberg, Texas. I was looking for freedom to discover, to accept, possibly to embrace the secret desires of my heart. I was looking for love and, if I had to leave my family to find it, well that was the price I had to pay. Had I fully grasped the magnitude of the price I would pay for my choice over the next fifty years, I’m not sure I would have driven away in the Buick Skylark, but hormones were raging; they were my personal call of the wild. Get me outta here, Percy.

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    To be continued. Please stay tuned.

  • Sheila Gets a Shave (from Deep in the Heart)

    Sheila Gets a Shave (from Deep in the Heart)


    “George, here comes Sheila for her shave,” said Old Man Tom Grissom, who was already in his favorite spot in the barbershop by the time I got there.

    Ma, my grandmother who had been married to Barber George Morris for over forty years, said Tom Grissom ought to pay rent for all the time he spent sitting on that bench in the shop. Pa, my grandfather the barber, just laughed like he always did. He’d be charging rent to a lot of old men if he ever got started on that. The barbershop was a thriving business on Main Street in Richards, Texas. Main Street was the only paved street in Richards (Pop. 440), and Pa was the sole barber in the area. People drove from all over Grimes County to his out-of-the-way shop with one barber’s chair that was bought in the 1930s when he first opened. Waiting patrons and gossipy old men sat on two wooden benches.

    Past the benches was a shoeshine stand that Pa used when somebody wanted shiny boots. Along the wall behind the barber’s chair were a long mirror and two shelves that held the glass display boxes. One of the boxes housed gleaming scissors, combs, and brushes for haircuts. The other held shaving mugs, razors, and Old Spice bottles for the shaves. Everything was spotless.

    Pa was happy to see me. “Hey, sugar. You here for your shave?” he asked.

    “I sure am, Barber Morris,” I replied in my most grownup customer voice. It was the summer after my second grade in school, and I loved to come to the barbershop. Sometimes I brought my play knife and sat on the porch outside the shop and whittled with the old men who lolled there for hours just talking and whittling. Other times, I had business with my grandfather.

    Like today. Pa got out the little booster seat and put it in the barber’s chair so I could climb up on it. I was too small to sit in the chair without it.

    “How about a haircut with your shave? That pretty blonde hair is getting too long for this summer heat,” he said.

    “No, thanks, Pa. Mama always tells me when to get my hair cut,” I said. “Just a shave today.”

     Old Man Tom Grissom nodded at this. “I sure wouldn’t be cutting that blonde hair without Selma knowing,” he said. “She’s mighty particular about things.”

    “I appreciate your advice, Tom,” Pa said with a trace of annoyance. “But Sheila Rae and I are just having a conversation for fun. Nothing serious.”

    Pa listened as Tom Grissom talked and talked and talked some more about delivering the mail that morning. Being the Richards rural-route carrier was hazardous, to hear him tell it: cows in the road to drive around, barking dogs chasing armadillos right in front of him. This was hard work, and then you had the heat! Why, he couldn’t keep his khaki uniform dry from all that sweat. Yes, sir, this was no job for the faint-hearted. And on and on.

    Meanwhile, Pa had placed the thin white sheet over me and leaned the chair back just far enough to start to work. He lathered up the shaving cream in his mug with the brush and dabbed it on my face. I loved the smell of the shaving cream. He let that soak while he took the razor strop attached to the chair and swished it up and down slowly and methodically to get it just right. It didn’t matter to me that he was using the side without the blade. It made the same swishing noise.

    Then he took the bladeless side of the razor and gave me the best shave ever. He was very careful to get every part of my face. He even pinched my nose so that he got the part between my mouth and nose just so. Pa was an artist with his razor and scissors. He put a warm wet white cotton laundered towel over my face and rubbed off the last of the shaving cream. It felt so clean. Finally, he took the Old Spice After-Shave and gave it a good shake, rubbed it on his hands, and then on my face and neck. Nothing beats the aroma of Old Spice.

    Old Man Tom Grissom said, “Well, that ought to do you for a week or so, won’t it?”

    “Yes,” I said. “Probably so. We’ll see.”

    Pa gave me the worn yellow hand mirror that he gave to all his customers to inspect his handiwork. I studied my face thoughtfully.

    “Well, how does it look to you?” he asked with a smile. “Time to pay up. That’ll be two bits for the shave. That’s with the favorite granddaughter discount.”

    “Very good, Barber Morris. Much obliged.” I reached into my jeans pocket and brought out some play money coins and handed them to Pa.

    Just about that time, Ma drove up and got out of her car. “George, what’s Sheila Rae doing in that chair?” she bristled.

    Old Man Tom Grissom said, “Betha, Sheila Rae’s here for her shave.” Ma gave him a withering look and said, “Is your name George? Don’t you have any mail to deliver, or would that require removing yourself from that bench you warm every day?”

    I got down from the barber’s chair and ran over to Ma and tried to reassure her that everything was all right. Ma looked at Pa and said this was just what she had been telling him the other night about encouraging me in all this foolishness.

    “She shouldn’t be spending her summer hanging around this shop,” she said, looking accusingly at Pa, who said nothing.

    “Ma, can I have a nickel to go get an ice cream cone at the drug store? Getting a shave makes me hungry.” Ma never said no to me, so I got my nickel and left. I walked across the street to Mr. McAfee’s drugstore and got my Blue Bell vanilla cone and headed home.

    I saw Ma and Pa still in animated conversation at the shop.

    Old Man Tom Grissom had gone home.

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    Deep in the Heart: A Memoir of Love and Longing was published in 2007 when I was 61 years old. Much has changed in the past 16 years, but I continue to smile when I read this story of the little girl growing up in the 1950s in the tiny town of Richards, Texas. I can see her now walking the block on a red dirt road from the house where she lived to Main Street, not in any hurry but not dawdling like she did some time, on her way to town. Summertime meant no school, looking for things to do during the day for the only child whose few playmates might not be around, so her mother let her go to town to be entertained by her grandparents. Her mother’s mother worked in the general store as a clerk, so Sheila Rae could stop there for a hug and maybe a nickel for a candy bar unless her grandmother had customers in the store, or she could walk past the general store and the post office to the next small building that housed the barbershop owned by her grandfather on her daddy’s side. Someone once said to my father, “Glenn, you have such a happy child. She’s always smiling,” to which my daddy replied, “Why shouldn’t she be happy? Nobody ever tells her no.” When I wrote this book in 2007, I’m sure I didn’t fully understand what he meant by that remark. Now that my wife and I have two granddaughters, I totally get it.

  • find your happy place

    find your happy place


    From our first trip together to Cancun, Mexico in 2001…

    …to a recent outing 22 years later with our granddaughters at a local Mexican restaurant…

    …Pretty and I have considered Mexican food to be nectar of the gods

    Viva! Viva!

    Find your happy place – and stick with it.

  • memory makers over Memorial Day

    memory makers over Memorial Day


    (l – r) Molly, Ella and Caleb

    Our granddaughters sixteen-month-old Molly with three-year-old big sister Ella plus their ten-month-old first cousin Caleb had a room with a view in our Memorial Day weekend place in the mountains of the South Carolina upstate. This is their story.

    Caleb, come with me, said Molly

    then Ella said Caleb, don’t go with Molly – she’s a drama queen

    so Caleb stayed with Ella, and Molly sat by herself

    I’ve got my baby and my guard dog Carl, Molly said

    Carl and I can hang out with Naynay

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    I went for a walk with my Aunt Darlene, said Ella…

    I petted a baby goat at the Farmer’s Market…

    I had s’mores around a big campfire while Molly and Nana talked

    Mama and Daddy were all smiles when we went to dinner

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    and then every night Naynay and I were so tired we went fast asleep

    while Nana read her book

    The End

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    Slava Ukraini. For the children.

  • I will be missing you, Tina Turner

    I will be missing you, Tina Turner


    Every time I think of you
    I always catch my breath
    And I’m still standing here, and you’re miles away
    And I’m wondering why you left
    And there’s a storm that’s raging
    Through my frozen heart tonight
    I hear your name in certain circles
    And it always makes me smile
    I spend my time thinking about you
    And it’s almost driving me wild
    And there’s a heart that’s breaking

    Down this long distance line tonight
    I ain’t missing you at all
    Since you’ve been gone away
    I ain’t missing you

    No matter what I might say
    There’s a message in the wire
    And I’m sending you the signal tonight
    You don’t know how desperate I’ve become
    And it looks like I’m losing this fight
    In your world I have no meaning
    Though I’m tryin’ hard to understand
    And it’s my heart that’s breaking

    Down this long distance line tonight
    I ain’t missing you at all
    Since you’ve been gone away
    I ain’t missing you

    No matter what my friends say
    And there’s a message that I’m sending out
    Via telegraph to your soul
    And if I can’t bridge this distance

    Stop this heartbreak overload
    I ain’t missing you at all
    Since you’ve been gone away
    I ain’t missing you
    No matter what my friends say
    I ain’t missing you, I ain’t missing you

    I can’t lie to myself
    And there’s a storm that’s raging
    Through my frozen heart tonight
    I ain’t missing you at all
    I ain’t missing you, missing you
    I ain’t missing you, no, no
    I ain’t missing you
    I ain’t missing you, I ain’t missing you
    I ain’t missing you, I ain’t missing you
    I ain’t missing you, I ain’t missing you
    Every time I think of you
    I always catch my breath

    These lyrics written in 1984 by John Waite became a #1 hit on Billboard’s Album Rock Tracks, then covered by other artists through the years until it reached Tina Turner’s Wildest Dreams album and tour in 1996 where it found a home in the hearts of millions of Turner’s fans – including mine.

    From the Spring Hills Baptist Church choir in Nutbush, Tennessee as a child of the late 1940s to concert halls around the globe that set ticketed attendance records including her largest venue with more than 180,000 fans in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil in 1988 Turner entertained and amazed millions of people for nearly six decades with her raspy voice, high energy, sexy self. Her ability to overcome, to survive and thrive in a man’s music world were an inspiration to everyone that knew her story.

    Thank goodness for YouTube videos of Tina Turner who has often been referred to as the Queen of Rock and Roll – I watched my favorite, the Amsterdam concert, through tears when I heard she had left the building.

    Every time I think of you, I always catch my breath…this week I spent my time thinking of you, and it’s my heart that’s breaking.

    RIP, Tina Turner. I will be missing you.